Catch Phrase

There's a catch phrase I have heard in my workplace that addresses any items that are lingering and need to be taken care of. These are the "nuts and bolts". I see it as a little housekeeping...clearing things up and tidying the area, so to speak. So I'm going to address a few nuts and bolts so that when the inspiration comes to write something that can be inspiring, the path is clear for me to do so.

Item 1-The blue hair is staying. It has delighted me to have people coming up to me almost 18 months after putting my blue streak in my hair and say, "You dyed your hair blue." or "Your hair is blue again." or "Oh, you still have blue in your hair." It's true. I do still have it. I love it. My blue streak has been there for almost a year and a half. Granted, I have to touch it up every month so sometimes it is brighter than others, but it is always there. It is a part of me now. It is a confidence booster when I am feeling timid, it makes me happy, it reminds me of my dad, and it is my favorite color. My blue streak matches my blue car-and between my car and my hair, I feel a freedom that I can't describe from the problems and issues in life when I find occasion to escape. The speed and solidity of my car matched with the bravery it took to step out of my little box to put a blue streak in my hair gives me a bit of contentment in this crazy world. And that manual transmission...oh how I love that thing! So the blue hair is staying for the foreseeable future.

Item 2-First of all, thank you to all the people who have asked about how my hematoma is healing. It means alot to me that people want to know if I am okay. I have often felt alone and I have floundered for the past year or so...knowing people care means the world to me.  I have cute little kids at school who also check on me every day. Yes, it is still there. It still hurts. Murphy's  law dictates that it is the one place on my body that gets repeatedly (yet accidentally) hit or bumped or knocked. It is smaller. It isn't as dark. I am accepting the possibility that I may have it forever. That way, if it does go away it will be a nice surprise. But right now it is still a reminder of the lessons I have learned in the past year and the blessings I have received along with the lessons, so though it is a painful nuisance, I don't begrudge it. I am grateful.

Item 3-Things are getting better. I have learned great coping skills over that last 18 months. I have learned to listen. I have learned I need to try to improve everything I can about myself, and I realize that is a never ending process on this earth. I have learned that even though I am a kind person, I need to have compassion and see all sides of every situation, because I need the same done for me. I don't like to have to learn anything that causes trauma to my soul, but I will always be grateful when I can glean lessons and see silver linings in any trial. I am getting closer to the light. I realize there will always be storms, but I am grateful for the patience of others and that this whirlwind that hit my life seems to be subsiding. I am grateful for my family and for the friends that have stood by me and for the understanding that even though I have not been as present as I would like to be, I still love ALL my peeps-forever. You're a part of my heart and I'm grateful. I am still trying to mainstream myself back into life-I will get there. Just because I have been more absent does not mean I won't be back. I need my people. And that leads me to the last item....

Item 4-Thank you for keeping up with me through my blog. My blog has been a lifesaver. It has been my journal, my sounding board, my outlet, my connection to others. It cleanses my soul. I am so humbly gratified when people thank me for my thoughts, or identify with my feelings. I am grateful for requests to blog more, and for the love that flows from others who read and share my life with me. I am so very grateful. If you are touched by my thoughts and feelings, or you feel someone else would identify with them, please share. I am not on social media just yet, so you, my peeps, are the way I get the word out. I am amazed how far it gets, and I thank those who have shared my blog and supported me. I don't want recognition, but I feel if I can be a light to anyone, or help anyone feel not so alone, or make sure someone knows they are not the only one who experiences doubt and fear, then my blog is doing what it needs to be doing. It is wonderful to receive feedback that something I wrote helped someone else. I do not take credit for any of it-I really do rely on heavenly inspiration to know what to write, and when. But if you are inspired or touched, or comforted in any way, please share. It helps me to pay it forward for all the kindness and blessings I receive. And I will be grateful.