For example, whenever we are on a vacation, I start out enjoying the activities and having fun, but by the middle of the trip my brain starts yelling at me, "Oh no....we're halfway through! I only have X amount of days left of vacation!" And the countdown continues until it's over. I hate that! I try to drown that silly voice out but it's always in there dying to get out. As I've gotten older, I have tried to mercilessly squelch that voice as soon as it rears its ugly noise at me. I'm working on that.
I realize I do the same thing with summer break. I love my job. It's fulfilling, it makes me happy, I work with amazing adults and children, and it gives me something constructive to do during the hours that my family is gone. But I love summer. I love the freedom of it and the memories built during it. I admit that I am one of those moms that LOVES to be with her children. ALL the time. I love having time to spend with them. I love having a little more family time and that those evening hours don't have to be spent doing homework and chores, but outside roasting marshmallows and chasing dragonflies.
BUT. As soon as the middle of July rolls around, that voice starts up again. "You have to go back to work in 3 weeks." "Your summer is almost 3/4 over!" "The kids have grown up another year. You're running out of time with them." It's relentless! I think that's why we try to cram in as many last minute activities as possible this time of year. We know we have to! And my goal is to enjoy every minute. I don't want to wish time away.
On a positive note for summer's end (no it is NOT here yet!!) I am craving Fall and all the joy that comes with it. COOLER DAYS!!! Sweater weather. Hearty meals. Yummy spicy smells. Leaf piles to jump in. Halloween...and more life to live. I figure if that voice is going to be in my head anyway, I should give it a silver lining to shout about-right?
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| Cassie and Meghan leaf pile jumps-Fall 2004 |
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| Cute faces -2004 |
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Yay for sweater weather!  |
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