Do You Really Though?

I have been working on this post for almost a month now, filling it with wonderful words  and thoughtful phrases. I poured my feelings into it to let the reader know how much I  truly love. How deeply I feel. The time and energy I expend...all the Heathery things you've come to know and expect. It all started to look the same to me- the same old stuff. So I erased that sucker and here's what's left.

 I need to know if you know. 

If life gets crazy for me do you still know I love you? If I'm tired and unable, do you know then? If my body takes me down and I am unable to be there, do you still know I want to be? If my brain is too full  and I can't form cohesive thoughts, do you understand I still think of you? Do you fathom that when tragedy strikes my life and am trying to pick up the pieces, I still care about what is going on in your life? Would you guess that when I need prayers for my life, I am praying for yours?  If we haven't seen each other in awhile, do you know I miss you? When I remember all the good times we had, I always wish we'd had more? And if we parted ways with good feelings or with awkwardness, I still wish you the best there is in life. I do. I really do.

It does get hard for me to have all this love inside of me-just bursting at the seams, and hope it's getting to everyone when they need it. I hope my actions show it. I hope my words do too. I hope the feeling you get when I am sending my love makes an impression that lasts and that you never have to wonder if it's there. It is. My love is a living, breathing thing that is all encompassing and never ending...even, yes even...if our friendship has ended and we never see each other again. This girl is wishing the best for wherever your life takes you. I wish you success. I wish you joy. I wish ways for you to find yourself-and find yourself happy.

So there is is. If you didn't know, you sure should now. If I have  been remiss in showing you, call me out on it. I'll do better. It is my job to love. My Promise. My joy. And I am grateful.